quizas el suelto de proyectos

i don't know if that title/subject line is correct but, it may be the truth....and here's why...
as much as this is a time for me to try and learn some more, or some, spanish, i am also on vacation. right? i think so. and as much as i am willing to work hard and keep my nose to the grindstone, how long do i endure a class that i'm pretty sure has passed its expiration date with me? and for those who don't know the course or class structure - here are the cole's notes.
from the time you enter class on the first day, it's spanish. the teacher speaks little, if any english. ok? so immersion it is - and i'm down with that. i knew that going in. but, there are times when you need to know something and when you ask in english or the best spanish you have, and the answer comes back at you in spanish, then there's a problem. not huge, but a problem. and if your, like my, vocabulary is small - but gaining daily - then you have no idea what the teacher just said to you so, the answer she's given is useless. so you're still in the dark. this is one of my problems. and they speak so fuckin' fast. mas lento.
secondly, the school has office staff that are told what to do and how to do it...so if you need help that's outside what they have been told to do or help you with, it's not going to happen. you need a single sheet copied? they have a copier but they won't do it for you. you need to use a mouse for a few seconds to fix something on your laptop - i did - they won't lend you a mouse. and they too will answer you in spanish even if they know you're in the super beginner class...and keep speaking in spanish even when it's clear you have no idea what they're saying.
i don't want english all the time, nope, but i want it when i'm needing major help.
today in class i was lost. not completely but lost, and i felt like an idiot - i know i shouldn't, but i did. and i kinda felt a switch get turned off. and i wonder if i've taken in all i can? and not on purpose have given in or up but maybe my brain has. so i'm thinking about, maybe, cashing in after a few more days of spanish abuse, renting a car, going to the coast for a few days, then come back here, pack up and head back to mexico city and hang with ricardo before i head home.
but then will i feel like a failure? or a guy who did what he could? experienced the city and some school and had a great time...maybe i've learned more than i know. maybe not. is it that important?
any thoughts on this would be great...

ok.

more studying.

g. xo