for years i have put documents and files i deemed important onto external hard drives. i have been diligent about this. then, one of my drives began to screrw-up. i have no lost most of what was on that drive. memories, files, documents-gone. sure was worth it. and now, a new drive i bought to replace the old drive has fucked-up as well. so, i've now lost even more files and documents etc...why even fucking bother? i used to sit with barb, my therapist, and try and figure out when it was that i became a grumpy, depressed person and we could never quite pin it on any one thing or time in my life. well, i'm here to tell you it was when i first became involved in computers. from the time i first bought my first computer, life has become more and more shitty. computers have ruined my life. i'm not joking. much in the same way i hate vancouver as it gets bigger and less personal and more and more assholes move here and more and more people give a shit only about themselves and no one else, i am hating computers and my involvement with them more and more. pictures, movies i've made, big rookie inc. files, lawn order stuff, bills-all gone. like they never happened. i love it.
all this and the rain just keeps on coming. fuck this. i mean really, fuck this. i hate this place, i hate my computer shit, i hate this fucking crap i have been handed.
ok. i need to get out of the house-but i'll probably stay in...i mean, where the fuck am i going to go? to the movies?
fuck that.
g.
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Wow there is a lotta bitchin' and moanin' going on here.
Aren't you the guy who owns three modes of transportation and owns a piece of the pie in a building in downtown Van, has some great art work hangin' on your walls collected on some of your road trips south (road trips most of us only talk about going on)? Isn't it you that created a great means of making some $$ during the down times when you aren't blowing things up for big productions filming in Vancouver? I think it's you who breaths a breath of fresh air/charm and wit when you walk into a room, it's you who your friends seem to call and rely on for your generosity of time and skill. It is you who keeps us entertained with your words here in this blog, it's you who entertains us with your quirks and collections of stuff; your crazy couch and chair purcases! You with your careers and talents, experiences.
My suggestion is to make a note..get it all down, what your 'perfect life' looks like. Each morning get up and lay out a gratitude list of all the abundance that you already have in your life...(12 items each day) then set out to make your 'perfect life' a reality.
You got it all going on here and you you make a diffrence for many people. It's not too late to get that. yah it rains here, yah it's a big city, ....xo
thanks but i am beyond all that right now. not to say i don't understand that i have great friends and such things. but really, the friends are the only things that really matter.
this town is a shithole but i am kinda stuck here. the rain is bullshit. i'm not sure where you get the idea i make money when i'm not working in film-i don't. i cut a few lawns and make enough money to pay for the gas in the mowers, a few lunches and that's it.
i have a few material goods that i would be willing to give up for a better overall being...that's the truth.
absolutely no disrespect intended at all. quite the opposite...I think quite highly of you. xo
Just my 2 cents worth....
garnet, i just read this to my boyfriend and we laughed our asses off. laughed them off in solidarity, dude. the past two months we have been enduring a complete renovation of an apartment above us, waking up to and coming home to the sound of sanders and compressors and hammering etc., six days a week. long story short it's been hell. and our new landlord, who is moving into said apartment, doesn't want to compensate us. why? because he is a DICK. so right now i have cable guys drilling and hammering above my head and i am really close to packing up my shit and moving to buttfuck nowhere where there's no cable and no computers and no high speed dsl.
anyhoo, i hope things pick up for you soon. for reals.
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