worried

i'm a little worried. worried i won't be able to make it. i can be a bit of a worrier or a guy who over-thinks things but i don't think that's what i'm doing now, i have some serious concerns. i don't think i'm gonna be able to finish the menu at topanga. last night corie and i went there and i had a meal i was almost unable to finish. i know i'm a big fella but i don't eat huge meals and this is hard...i'm not sure, and like i said i'm worried - and maybe even scared - that i'll never finish the two burrito dinner. never.
in other news...
the russian e.mailed me and asked me for one last cut at her estate in burnaby...and it is like an estate. she lives in this little neighbourhood tucked away on the burnaby-new west border that has these huge homes with long stone driveways. a little river runs behind her place and separates her place from an even bigger house behind her. yesterday as i was getting started, i was doing the trimmer edging and working my way around the house, with my head down paying attention, when all of a sudden i felt eyes on me. i looked up and there were three people staring at me. i'm assuming it was her kid and his girlfriend and another guy. at first they seemed kinda confused as to what i was doing there but when i asked them if i should stop - because they were having drinks out on the deck in big glasses like it was august - they said no keep going...and then watched me for the rest of the time cutting the grass. and sometimes they spoke in english, but when i was close to them, they switched to russian. i felt like i was at the sopranos place doing the lawn. when i was finished i just split and will figure out the payment later...she's good about that stuff.
in long distance news...
i had a call from my man marc belke from up in the hinterland yesterday...i love that guy and was actually about to send off a long e.mail to him since we hadn't spoken in a while...but now it has all been said in the call yesterday. more expensive, sure, but nice to hear his voice. he's enjoying his time in smithers but it is not without its problems and concerns. love gets tested for sure, life moves along at a slower pace than in the big city, great intospection. i miss him on the ice when we're playing bomber hockey to be sure and one day, maybe he'll make a guest appearance old mittens will.
i finally got my hair cut yesterday, not that it's really noteworthy but sometimes it's so great getting rid of a bunch of that bulk...short for spring. afterwards mishi and i hooked up and went to get her birthday cake up on 16th ave - some fancy pants bakery. she and the garbs were gonna be going to his mom's for thanksgiving/mishi's birthday dinner...issy's not having a thanksgiving dinner this year so no turkey for me this year...well, i may get some turkey - if i feel like getting some but it'll be at a restaurant or capers or whole foods i guess...which is fine...and i have been invited for thanksgiving dinner elsewhere but am not going due to...well, i'm just not. it's all good. i'm actually looking into whether or not denny's has a thanksgiving dinner, i've been there before for birthdays and, i think, xmas but can't remember if they have a turkey hoedown.
ok..bomber hockey in a couple hours so i should get ready for that...relax, eat, get my gear together...it takes time.

have a great sunday.

g. xo