trying to be nice and help out...

...never felt so shitty.
the readers digest version.

a friend of mine needed to move some furniture from olympia to vancouver. i said i could help out. and then, i kinda got sidetracked and didn't phone her, as i should have, to set it up. i did leave message and tried to get in touch but, some shit got in the way - life, etc..and i failed to keep her in the loop. i then ran into her and said my 'i'm sorry's' and told her i was ready to rock. we made a plan right then and there to do the move on the thanksgiving weekend. then, she decided that that may be a bad weekend and maybe we should do it the next weekend. shit, i was ready to go. i told her i would look into getting the van i was going to use the next weekend...then, i got called to work on a film, did some other work, lawns, headquarter, etc...and i forgot to call her. i admit it. my fault. and that weekend passed. shit.
so...she had mentioned she needed to get it all moved by the end of the month so called her on her home phone and on her cell phone and left messages asking if we were still gonna go get the furniture...no calls back. not a word.
so tonight i was getting into the elevator at mishi and garb's building - where she lives as well - and she was getting off the elevator and i said hello and made mention that she hadn't called me back and her response was, "yup. just giving it back to you."
huh? so i fucked up, which i admit, so that makes it okay to, on purpose, ignore my call about something i was helping her with? fuck that. and you know the phone works both ways...you don't hear from me, call me.
maybe i'm over thinking this but i say this, fuck you, fuck that, don't ask me to ever help you again. fuck it.
hhmmm...i feel better now. i'm not perfect and was just trying to get through a tough month and still help you out.

fuck you.

g. xo