i wish i had...

i have nothing really to report today...yet. i have been housebound all day thus far. i can't seem to get it together to get out the door. sure, i have things to do but, i couldn't give less of a shit about them. the phone hasn't rung today-either of them. i like that. i have been working a little on xmas projects. things i'm pretty sure are stupid but that's ok. once they're out of my hands they're gone. i have no transport today. the coolerator is in the shop and the comet saga has become somewhat of a cruel joke...on me. i have also had to put some toys on ebay due to my recent trip costing me a ton of cash and the bills that have come in for other things are kinda freakin' me out. i have decided, and not so much as a new year resolution, that i will try and tidy up my finacial life in 2006. it's a bit of a disaster right now. less dinners out, less toys, less of everything. there will not be any trips south of portland in 2006..well, maybe comic con, but that will only happen if i get my shit in line. i will reveal other things for 2006 soon enough. i am not one to make resolutions but some things have to change or i'm going to go postal.
be on the lookout for 'rock for sue nammy'...those of you who know about it know about it, those who don't, don't. and that's ok. it'll be stupid and funny and stupid. and even more stupid. four shows, four minutes long each. please no pictures.
the top ten style lists will be coming soon as well...not all happy lists either. my life has gone through some shit in the past year and these lists may reflect these shitty things...maybe not. i may decide to hold it all to myself.
i was thinking about tom zallen yesterday while i was on the bus riding home from downtown. i miss him a great deal. i think about him a lot. yesterday as i was riding the bus i was listening to a rather sad song by richmond fontaine at the same time and it was a little much. i feared i was going to start crying on the bus. i didn't. then when i got home jessica, one of his daughters, called me. it was a little odd. i love that girl. last year for chritmas eve i had dinner at their house in dunbar. it was one of the highlights of my year. ok...enough of this. enough to say i loved that guy.
it's a great day out and i should get out there. there are errands to run and shitola to do. so i should do it. i do want to thank the soapers, pam and tobe, for coming over last night and for the great pasta. sometimes you just have to sit around, talk shit and eat a little food... those kids is ok!
ok...more later when i've got it a little more together.

g. xo