day 367...and counting...

smoking. i miss it, but i have to say i don;t crave it. it has been over a year now-hold the applause-and i, and i've said this before, don't really feel any differently. i guess i should and i know that it's best i don't smoke but...there should be more of an obvious payoff. oh well..i do know, and this isn't really a new year resolution but, i've got to get it together-in so many ways. i'm fat, or maybe not fat fat but lumpy and i don't like it. not one bit. i think it prevents me from doing things, feeling good, etc...i was trying on frames for potential glasses to day and had to do the unthinkable, as far as i'm concerned, and look at myself in the mirror as i tried on different styles of frames. it was painful. i took a picture of the one pair that were bearable. they seem kinda flimsy but...i dunno. i have to go get my eyes checked and then we'll see. my doctor says that eventually i'll have to wear glasses fulltime just to give the old eyes a break, maybe that time is now. i get headaches and feel sometimes that i'm forcing them to see certain things. anyhow...new glasses don't help my big fat gut though. i have been going to the gym but i need to cut the crap. well, i did say it a few posts ago, certain things are gonna go...foodwise.. we'll see the proof will be in the (lack of) pudding...

the pic is a blurry one but...you get the idea. i have cropped away the rest of my face because it was just a little too painful...