day eight....

...and it isn't getting any easier...but i'm trying to stay the course and keep on keepin' on...but it's tough. thank god for ang, with her, thus far, being the saving grace for me and lawn order...and shauna for getting me where i need to go...but three months of this...? wow. i'm not going to say i don't think i'm gonna make it, because i have to, but it's hard...have i said how hard it is yet.
the day to day stuff is no big deal - walking to do errands and such - no biggie. the problem lies in that i use the element for work, to make money, there in lies the difference. but for me it's more than that, it's the being able to go when i want to go, that's the big deal. i hate having to rely on others schedules and i don't want to disrupt them from their day to day....for me, because i lost my right to drive. not their fault so when i find myself getting worked up, i try and remember that...but...it's hard. i have always been an independent sort. for now, in regards to driving and moving about, i am not. tough one.
someone said, "it'll go fast"...in reference to the three months....no it won't. it will finally expire, the time i have been given, but it won't go fast, shit, i'm only on day eight of 90...ha ha ....82 to go...i'll tell you what'll go fast, my sanity.
oh well, no sense complaining, which isn't what i'm doing here, i hope, i'm just sayin', ya know? know what i mean willis?

g. xo